A step closer to a new dream. ♥ ♥ ♥

Isang linggo ng pagod at non-stop brain activity... and it was all worth it. It was hard adjusting to a new task. Ang daming demands and very limited ang alotted time. Pero dito ko naprove na nothing is impossible sa pusong naniniwalang kaya niya. At first I was in doubt na kaya ko. Pero everyone seemed to believe in me; I did not want to disappoint them.

I did it, yehey for me! And I was not just teaching, I was also learning. Hindi mo na talaga maiisip kung ano ba makukuha mo out of it. It no longer mattered whether I benefit or not. At the end of the day, what mattered was knowing I've contributed something important. That the people who I worked with would treasure me as their friend. That after the first phase, I was more than who I used to be. 

Best Team. 
Even when everyone already has their assigned team leads, I am overwhelm to hear that I will always be the best coach for these guys.

VicTeam. 
Seeing everyone graduates made me so proud. These guys are my first group of babies to complete training.

Vic the 2nd Daw.
The quiet and kind girl who ripped all the awards at the very end. I will always be your proud ate and coach.

Congratulations to everyone. See you around!

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Our everyday choices molds our tomorrow. Someone said the future is now. Someone said it is not finding the right person, but being the right person. Someone said our intentions are not always what become of our actions. Someone said time is a commodity that we can no longer afford to waste. I say, well, it is okay not to chase after dreams. I am content with gliding and slowly dancing my way towards it. For now. ;-) 

It must be very lonely for Time to heal all wounds...

Girl: I thought time heals all wounds...

Boy: Be patient. Some things, destined to be or not, will happen when they are bound to.

Girl: I just want it all to take away all the pain... to fix the broken, to help me get back up...

Boy: Sitting here beside you, watching you kill yourself slowly with thoughts that bring you nothing but hurt... It must be very lonely for Time to be the one healing all wounds...

No matter how hard we want to, we cannot just erase bad and hurtful memories. Even accidents that could cause memory loss do not guarantee a permanent brain damage (and that's not to consider how far we are now with technology and medicine). Though they never go away, I know they could fade with time. And as we come to create more memories, live more experiences, meet more people, make more dreams happen... we also come to eventually accept that these memories that we allow to haunt us, they are stopping us in more ways than we realize.

They fade with time... and there will come a point when we just don't want to overthink things anymore. Either way, nothing with these memories would change anyway. So what's the point, right? We can play each scene and run the same script over and over until we fall asleep, and when we wake up, nothing has really change. They still happened. But then it's a stupid and unrealistic premise (yeah, I don't believe it myself). It's easy to say "I'll survive this," but of course we do not take our own advice (giving the advice we could make ourselves listen to, that's our friends' job). Seriously though, when we've already moved on from the hurt, when we are already THERE on the other side watching the past with a nostalgic smile, that's the time we'll have the guts to say out loud that "Yeah, I know I'd survive it." But when we're still in the middle of the chaos, all we see is how humiliated we are, all we feel is how painful everything seems to be, all we could think of is that it's never ever going to be okay, all we want to do is be miserable and cry. Speaking from experience (I've been wanting to say that. hahahah), it's hardest to be strong when everything around us is falling apart. Ironically, we need courage the most when we're most broken, alone, and hopeless. Because even when human nature demands us to deny it to ourselves, we're going to be okay. Better sooner than later. Life is beautiful in this way... there are broken roads and there are the smooth ones. We can choose which way to take, but not really where it will lead us. We can regret the choices we've made all we want. But, c'mon, when we were making them, we did not think they were such bad ideas. In case the road we chose to take only lead us to a dead-end, we could always turn around and take another path. Eventually, our faith, perseverance, determination, pride, boredom, luck (and whatever else it might be), will lead us to that road we've been looking for all along. It will be worth all the waiting and failing and trying. Again, life is beautiful in this way.

Mahalin mo na lang kahit kunwari

Dalangin nyang nakatingin sa langit

Naubos na ang sandali ng buhay niyang kasing gulo

Ng ‘sang pelikulang wala namang istorya

Natapos ng ikaw na lang ang bida

‘di man lang nasabi na

Mahal na mahal mo sya

Mahal na mahal mo sya

Naubos na ang luha nya

Pikit na ang kanyang mata

Kanina’y nakatitig pa

Sa larawan mo na yakap nya

(Kai – Maryzark)

My 14 notes to myself for the new year. Big world. Big words.

1. Enjoy life. Live by your standards, others' approval don't always count. Watch a corny movie. Eat something pink. Drink something blue. Make faces. Crack a joke at random. Wear your heart at all times. Don't do it to impress, do it because it feels like your happiness waiting to happen. Be prepared to be swept away.

2. Don't worry about things we can't change. If they are meant to, they'll happen regardless. When you turn your face skyward at night, notice how determined the moon and the starts to shine bright, instead of worrying about how dark it is. 

3. It's fine to expect too much, but we have to accept that's it is always a 50-50 chance that we'll win, or we will be disappointed. As they say, life is unfair to all of us, therefore it is fair. Dream big, dream the impossible, dream what others don't dare to dream. No dream is big enough, there is always room for more.

4. Keep moving. It doesn't matter where, just move. It keeps life's momentum. It gives life meaning, even when that meaning is a question. The answers do not lie in just one place. Keep looking. Enjoy searching and finding them would be most fulfilling.

5. Don't rush life. Slow down. Stop chasing after things no matter how important they seem to be at such moment. Take a moment to consider possibilities, sometimes there is too much chaos in our minds that we don't hear the important thing the universe is telling.

6. Check corners for little extras. Even a dead-end serves a purpose. You will be surprised at what secrets lies on unexpected and ignored places. You will not always find something, but when you do, it's all worth it.

7. Do some tango with a stranger. Eat some ice cream on a cold night. Be random. Be spontaneous. You don't have to plan every little thing. The perfect moments are in those unplanned ones. The perfect moments come when all your guards are down. Open up, loosen your nerves, and you'll feel the greatness in spontaneity.

8. Avoid imitating the world's routine. Create your own. It doesn't even have to be a routine. Life is anything but boring and predictable if we will recognize how much wonderful it can get. 

9. Stop waiting for others to make mistakes just so we can be the better man. Recognize the fact-as-to-experience truth that we can't learn it all on our own, others' mistakes help a lot. Make your own and let them make theirs. Learn from both. Do not criticize. Forgive shortcomings, regardless of whose it is.

10. Even if there's no more reason to, even if it looks stupid to others... just keep on believing. Don't give up just because the rest of he world has. Do it on your own terms. Fight back. You don't even have to win them all. Just love each battle and be dignified in doing it. You cay lay down your weapon when you are ready to.

11. Make the most of today. Explore. Don't tell yourself the unknown is too much to grasp. Face your fears. Fight what scares you to try. Don't stick to just one option. Even if it turns out bad, it is nice to look back and be able to say to ourselves "that was one tough me." 

12. Trust your heart to know the difference between sincere and overwhelmed. Be honest with your feelings. Be real. Work out your fears so they can somehow be used as strengths. When you find a loophole in something that should be strong, do not criticize. Everyone fails sometimes. Everyone who knows courage had known real heartbreak first.

13. Smile. Even when everything is at its worst, a smile in itself is a sign that we haven't given up hope yet. Smile at strangers, otherwise you'll never know how many would've smiled back. Do something silly so you can laugh at yourself. Smile about happy moments. Smile about the lessons from the bad ones.

14. Keep your faith. Pray. Shadows mean there is light beside the darkness. Someone is always keeping watch and we don't have to do it all alone.

P.S.

For something funny and random, I'm gonna watch Bride For Rent with my best friends sometime this week (hopefully), then eat real food at a real food place. I'm taking a break from English films and junk food. What's your story? 

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