A step closer to a new dream. ♥ ♥ ♥

Isang linggo ng pagod at non-stop brain activity... and it was all worth it. It was hard adjusting to a new task. Ang daming demands and very limited ang alotted time. Pero dito ko naprove na nothing is impossible sa pusong naniniwalang kaya niya. At first I was in doubt na kaya ko. Pero everyone seemed to believe in me; I did not want to disappoint them.

I did it, yehey for me! And I was not just teaching, I was also learning. Hindi mo na talaga maiisip kung ano ba makukuha mo out of it. It no longer mattered whether I benefit or not. At the end of the day, what mattered was knowing I've contributed something important. That the people who I worked with would treasure me as their friend. That after the first phase, I was more than who I used to be. 

Best Team. 
Even when everyone already has their assigned team leads, I am overwhelm to hear that I will always be the best coach for these guys.

VicTeam. 
Seeing everyone graduates made me so proud. These guys are my first group of babies to complete training.

Vic the 2nd Daw.
The quiet and kind girl who ripped all the awards at the very end. I will always be your proud ate and coach.

Congratulations to everyone. See you around!

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Our everyday choices molds our tomorrow. Someone said the future is now. Someone said it is not finding the right person, but being the right person. Someone said our intentions are not always what become of our actions. Someone said time is a commodity that we can no longer afford to waste. I say, well, it is okay not to chase after dreams. I am content with gliding and slowly dancing my way towards it. For now. ;-) 

just suppose that the shaping and molding of destiny, is in fact YOUR destiny...

Destiny is the bridge you build to the one you love. 

--My Sassy Girl

Merry Christmas! While almost everybody seems to be taking a rest after two days full of reunions, eat-outs, dates, parties, and whatever it is they do on the 24th and 25th, here I am still awake... blogging, uploading pictures and videos, downloading OSTs from the movies I've watched, eating left-overs, and of course, greeting people a Merry Merry Merrrrryyyy Christmas! I hope you had a blast!

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Dear Jesus,

Happy Birthday! Thanks for everything. I know You're busy, yet You always has time to make us all happy. Thanks for letting me keep my child spirit, and for helping me be a grown-up when I need to be. Thanks for never getting tired. And for Your unconditional love, I am so blessed to be at the receiving end. For my family and friends, I hope they all find what they are looking for. Please do not get tired in guiding them everyday... in watching over all of us. Thanks for making our home Yours, too. I hope someday we can be worthy enough to live in Yours. Help us live in Your glory and Yours alone. 

Love, 

Your child, Marivic

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Here goes some pictures from my Christmas Week. Plans for the rest of the year are still not over. Sana kasing saya, or mas masaya pa ang pagsalubong nating lahat sa New Year! God Bless!

My Cousins. We ended the night and started the morning together. Walang ligo-ligo, we visited all our aunts' and uncles' homes in the morning para mag-bless and also to greet them Maligayang Pasko. We're getting older so no aginaldo for us. But for games pictures, and food, age never matters.

2014 Planner and Coelho Book. Planners never work out for me. I was just born to be 'not organized.' When I fell in love with an excerpt from the book and the planner's design, I realize it's time to fix my life (yeah, planner is the life-changing answer. LOL). I even sell my SB planner 'coz I figured I don't like it at all. This is my best Christmas gift to myself.

Sweets! I only wished for a buffet, anywhere as long as there's a loooooot of food. And then I got more! This was from our Team Christmas Party held at Sambo Kojin Edsa. Even if i never tasted the blueberry cheesecake, I still got hyped up at all the colorful and tasteful sweets they have. These plates hold my favorite cakes and ice-creams. 

Waterfall and Rebel Braids. I never fix my hair, so my workmates go extra miles to do it for me (the wax is a punishment for not being vain, I think). For Christmas week, these are my favorite 'weird-hair-day' braids.

Dress-down Shoes. In just two weeks, I was able to collect five new shoes. And so far, these three are the mostly-worn of all. The World Balance (middle) is my favorite. BTW, it's for boy kids and I mine is a size 4.

Random Gifts. These are the gifts i love the super most. The music gal. The cookies that kill. The Justin-Bieber-hater-culture-shirt. The palaboy's powerbank. It's always the thought of the gift that counts. The value behind everything is measured by the beautiful story it brings.

See you on New Year!

the untitled story

The hater and the hated. The bestfriend and the lover. The soulmate and the spouse. The ghost and the hunted. The cactus and the dessert. The superhero and the villain-free city. The lemon and the vodka... How does it feel like to be THE irony in an ironic story? It's like choosing just one in every two options I just mentioned. Some of them sounds good (like soulmates and superheroes and lemons and vodka), but they can only be good if they serve the purpose of their existence. Without meaning, they are also just one of those choices people struggled with  each day. Just as without a villain, a superhero is just one of those ordinary guys who takes a bath and eat at least three times a day.

This post is for people like me who sometimes ask a lot of questions because they are afraid that if they stop asking, they would finally get an unpleasant answer. And I admit, I have this mood when I'd rather die wondering than know exactly how bad and painful the answer is. But i try to look anyway; I ask anyway.  Even when I know it will really hurt, I ask anyway. Then it led me to this: If life is as simple as learning to cook pancakes, then we would all be in deep trouble. Because just like life, pancakes looks easy to prepare, but it really is not...not when you want a really tasty and perfectly made pancakes (this is making me hungry).

So we are given a chance to choose who we could be, who would you want to be? I guess the reason why we are given freewill in the first place is because choosing one's fate from a limited list of options is unfair and stupid. We could be anyone, the options are infinite; this is basically what makes the choosing difficult and yet fun. 

If there could be an easy way out of all the illogical situations you get yourself into, but then the payback is that you get to live only within the bounds of all the things that makes life fine but not really great, would you take the bait? We create and live in stories every single day; some we share, some remain forever just that... a story untold. I'd rather have great untold stories than share all those that don't really make any difference to the world. Who cares about bragging rights? It doesn't make one happy and content... not for a long time anyway.

To make a mountain of your life

Is just a choice

But I never learned enough

To listen to the voice that told me

Always love... Hate will get you every time...

Always love... Don't wait til the finish line...

Slow demands come 'round

Squeeze the air and keep the rest out

It helps to write it down

Even when you then cross it out

But always love... Hate will get you every time...

Always love... Even when you wanna fight...

Self-directed lives

I want to know what it'd be like to

Aim so high above

Any card that you've dealt you

Always love... Hate will get you every time...

Always love... Hate will get you...

- Always  Love by Nada Surf

This was the background song when Robin lost her I-love-you-ginity to Ted in How I Met Your Mother...And yeah, it feels right when all along you've just been waiting for is the right person. When finally you find the right person, you would no longer have to choose... you could be who you really are. 

take a chance, claim that it's yours.

when you're tired of failing but you try again anyway, that's a winner's will.

when you won but you did not brag, that's being honorable.

when you're running out of time and losing trust but you waited anyway, that's love.

when you're experiencing nothing but loss and pain but you took the next step anyway, that's patience and bravery in one.

when you're scared but you push through anyway, that's real courage.

when you're shoved to the ground but you stood up again anyway, that's determination.

when you're mocked but you smile anyway, that's time-management (LOL).

when you're discouraged but you made it happen anyway, that's passion.

when you're given all the best options but you chose the one that's good so others can have the best ones, that's sharing.

when you're not loving the job yet you completed the tasks, that's discipline.

when you thought you could not do it but you tried anyway and made it happen, that's talent unraveled.

when you're broken but you picked up the broken pieces anyway, that's moving on.

when you're embarrassed but you still stayed, that's forgiveness.

when you're left behind but you forgive anyway, that's acceptance.

when they say you can't but you did it anyway, that's being yourself.

when you're sick of it all yet you believed and the least you expected did happen, that's called magic.

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End of the week. I can't wait for the next one to start. :) Have a great week ahead everyone!

I STILL MISS YOU. But this time it's with a smile. :)

it sucks for 'em...who cares!?

Sherlock: It has its curse.. learning to see the puzzle in everything. they're everywhere. Once you start looking, it's impossible to stop. But it just so happens that people, and all the deceits and illusions they live for and in everything they know, turns to be the most fascinating puzzle of them all. But of course, it's not always appreciated being seen as such.

Watson: Seems a lonely way to live...

Sherlock: As i've said, it has its curse.

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It sucks when you're just being yourself and other stills hate you for it. They don't want you to be "you" because then it will make you a better person than they are. They feel like you're better off being the pretentious bitch they picture you of being, for by then they will keep on having the excuse to hate you and to talk about you. They say just be yourself, and others will surely love you. This is not entirely true. People will always look at you the way they want to. You can't change their attitude towards you, simply because it's "theirs."

They would not want you to change; hell, you would not want to change for them. what they want is for you to go away, and they can't stop you from staying where you feel like you belong. The trick is to concentrate on what matters, instead of those that keep on trying to destroy it apart. And no matter what happens, it's not about turning the other cheek or pretending to be blind and deaf, it's  a matter of making a stand for what you believe. It's about making a stand for who you are now, not what they make you of. 

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Disclaimer: Oooooooops. This post is nothing personal. I just finished watching Elementary (Season 1) and i'm kinda inspired. LOL

Happy Weekend! 

the battle worth waging...

A genuine place within ourselves that keeps us safe and warm when everything around us is just a mess. Troubles will always be troubles. Reality will always be reality no matter how many excuses we could think of. We are strong only as we make ourselves strong. We are happy only as we make ourselves happy. So in the end, it is all from within us. The outside world only reacts.

When the world is too painful to face, it is within us that we find comfort. 

When we are lost and alone, we find the way by closing our eyes.

When it feels like giving up is the only option left, we think of the  moments when the things we thought impossible happened. Then our hearts interpret it as a source of hope, another point to start being positive again.

When we forgot the rules and cross the lines, we pay the consequences and ask for forgiveness. Then we look for inspiration to do better next time. Sorrows and guilt. Dreams and hope. It's always a matter of our choice. 

When we are messing things up, we pause, reflect, and then gather power from somewhere within to find the right answers. And even when we cannot find the right answers, we are okay as long as we know we are asking the right questions. Coz eventually these questions will be answered, it's just a matter of patience, will, determination, or whatever combination we think could work the magic.

When we get scared that monsters will appear once we turn the lights off, we pray.

When nothing seems to make sense, there is that hope from inside us that keeps us from letting go. We always hold on because no matter how helpless we might feel, no matter how hopeless others might make us feel, we know that there is always another way.

Our truth is in our mind and soul, from deep within us. People might contribute a lot in our pain and suffering as much as they contribute in our happiness, but is is really just about perspective. Things happen to us in effect to how we react on the previous events.

We can do great wonders, even just from small decisions. If we will trust ourselves that we are can do it, then we will be able to do it. And of course, it starts with having that special place inside that only we can access, a place where nobody else can interfere.

That special inner space is a gift. I am blessed to be given that precious gift.

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Note: SIDE EFFECT of Fringe Season 3 marathon. May pinaghuhugutan po ako. Hahahahaha. At background song ko ay 'Girl in the Mirror.'

"...Because we don't focus on the miracle of the day. Instead, we just keep measuring it's length." --The Timekeeper by Mitch Albom