Sunday, November 18, 2012

a happy birthday song for you...

It's time to make a start
to get to know your heart
time to show your face, time to take your place

I am now "that someone" who probably doesn't have a place in your heart anymore. I understand. I made it happen. I chose "US" to be just "YOU, ME"...no connection, not even the word "and". Being strangers is the best because being friends would defeat the whole purpose of both of us starting new lives without each other.

In every speck of dust
In every universe,
When you feel most alone, you will not be alone

I believe you when you said I will remain your soulmate forever, that someone who knows you more than anybody else...that someone who understands without you having to explain it all...that someone who sees behind all the barriers yet will remain quiet unless invited in...that someone who will make you laugh when the world is falling apart...that someone who is always there regardless of the circumstances...that someone whom you can count on when the world turns its back on you... 

Just shine a light on me, shine a light
I'll shine a light on you, shine a light
and you will see my shadow on every wall
and you will see my footprint on every floor

I can't promise anything, I don't have the right to. All I can tell you as a birthday gift is that "I remember....I never forgot..." Maybe I never will. All that happens to us, no matter how much pain it contains sometimes, remain with us for the longest time imaginable. We move on, we learn from the past, but we never forget.

It only takes a spark to tear the world apart
these tiny little things that make it all begin

I wonder how you spent your birthday. I hope it's with that big and beautiful smile in your face..

Just shine a light on me, shine a light
I'll shine a light on you, shine a light
and you will see my shadow on every wall
and you'll see my reflection in your free fall

I wish you all the best, though I'm sure you hardly care what I wish. Someday you will know the answers to all the why's, but I'm sure there's no more chances for all the what if's. The choices we both made, they made us who we are now, though of course sometimes we deny it. Denying it does not change the fact, though. I went the right way, you chose left (no pun intended. LOL). It's not because of the past, it's not because of the circumstances, it because we made a choice. I believe there's no shame in making a choice, so kudos there for you. 

Ooh, Oh Ooh, Ooh, Oh Ooh!

Just shine a light on me, shine a light
I'll shine a light on you, shine a light
'Cause when your back's against the wall
that's when you show no fear at all
and when you're running out of time
that's when your hitch your star to mine

You will always have a place in my heart, though time and space cannot guarantee that it will remain yours forever. I even feel it gets fainter each day, more memories getting less sentimental. There will come a time that nothing from all that happened would even matter, replaced by other great memories and even greater good feelings. But I'm still thankful that somehow you are part of who I become.

We won't be leaving by the same road that we came by...

NOTE: lines in bold and italicized letters are part of the song MY SHADOW by Keane. those in font face trebuchet are my thoughts. This is a birthday gift for someone who USED TO BE special. This is for a stranger...